I just need to connect and be heard I suppose.  I have been trying to adjust to the thought that I will be dealing with three major health problems.  Makes me feel like I will be juggling with more balls and I gotta learn not to drop one.

I do have to take a lot of meds for a lot of things.  I accepted being mentally ill.  I accept pretty easy that I had diabetes.  I just had a major hurdle to jump to accept that I have a heart disorder to deal with now.

I guess I knew there was this sense that I could somehow influence my mental illness and my diabetes.  But I find that dealing with blood thinner and the ins and outs of it more complicated.  But I have full confidence that I will.

I do remember reading several times that diabetes is a progressive disease.  I am getting older and maybe that makes a difference.  But I know that you can influence if complications come early or late, or maybe you can be a lucky one that totally avoids them.  I am not but that is ok.  We all have our own path to follow.  I was diagnosed later in life and I don't know for sure if I had diabetes that wasn't detected early.  I know the major symptoms turned up very quickly after my grandson died of cancer when he was two and my husband Paul died 16 days later because of his heart.  That was a lot of shock and grief to deal with.  I sometimes think that very stressful or painful circumstances can influence diabetes appearing.  Just a thought.

I still believe that life is good and I am hanging onto that thought.  When I fall down I eventually always get up again.  People that have known me for a long time always say that I am resilient and sometimes I can't acknowledge it but sometimes I can.

Sally

I had a lot of heart and pulmonary tests and everything but ONE thing is ok.  I have atrial fibrillation with a fast pulse.  Had a med this weekend that gave me very severe fatigue, depression, and my body seem not to be able to control its temperature well.  I got off of it and contacted my cardiologist and they were relieved I got off that med.  Tommorow I will be given an education about how to use a blood thinner and get a script and be on my way.  I have to admit that these things played priority in my mind and I didn't take care of my diabetes.  I just got overwhelmed and eating has always comforted me.  I will be more careful now that I have gotten my bearings back.

I am sorry I haven't been on dLife for a while.  I look forwards to catching up with the blogs.

Sally

I went for pulmonary tests and I was given the impression that I did pretty well.  My problem is she gave me a breathing treatment with Albuterol.  I felt very strange after that.  Tonight I tested my glucos and it was 297.  Mine never goes that high anymore.  I felt terrible.  I took some fast acting insulin so it will go down some soon.  It just is another reminder that when I take some medications that my sugar levels go up.  It is something to keep in mind if you guys find your levels going extremely high after a med change...  I have had this happen with other meds and I don't think I am taken serious.

Sally

I took some heart tests last tuesday and I am wearing a monitor for a while.  Friday my personal care physician gave me two inhalers and I am scheduled for some fancy test Tuesday to check out my lungs at the hospital.  I can't remember the name of it but it is expensive.  He told me to take it serious. 

Yesterday I got a call from a physician on call telling me to contact my heart specialist on Monday because I had an incident and my heart rate was significantly over 100 and it was irregular.  I don't know if I should stop the inhalers until after I see the specialist and if I should postpone the lung tests until after I know what the heart specialist gives me instructions on what I should do now.  I am in a quandry.

I want to share about some tests my sister had.  Use to be her trigs were over four hundred.  We always wondered if she had diabetes.  She now has a physically demanding job and she got tests results back.  Her trigs went down to 145, and the normal is 150 or lower. Her test showed her to be 78 on her sugar test.  She is 60 years old.  I am so proud and pleased for her.  She proves that things can help even after that age with the trigs and the diabetes probably will pass her by.  I love my older sister so much that I am thrilled.  Maybe later I can get my trigs down like she did.  Just will find out what is going on with my heart and lungs first.  I have been taking really good care of my diabetes but fell into temptation last night and had hand tossed pizza and my numbers are up this morning.  Just a natural consequence of my actions.  Is the consequences worth the pleasure?  My thoughts are up in the air about it.  I definitely hate my numbers being 197 this morning. 

I used one inhaler and I am hesitating to use the other.  It is the one that can make a heart to race.  Think I might avoid that one today.

It is going to be a beautiful day.  I have made up my mind that it will be and I will enjoy it.  Sundays are a day to recognize our Lord when you are a Christian.  Saturday is a holy day for others.  Guess all days are good.

Sally

I found an ad for something that I wish I could have.  It is a combo of a meter for diabetes and a high blood pressure monitor.  It has a voice to tell you the results and a big screen to read them.  I don't need this but it would be a wonderful toy for me to play with.

I also read the American Diabetes magaine "Diabetes Forecast" and I learn the most interesting things.

I have read about Weight-Loss Surgery and the pros and cons and I think that my opinions about it are changing.  You must have a Body Mass index of at least 35.  By pass or lap band surgery both help you lose weight and helps many to get rid of the symptoms of diabetes unless you have been diabetic for 15 years or more, or if you are on insulin.  They don't know the long term effects of these surgeries yet.  I read this information from the Diabetes Forecast also.  I can get the surgery I believe and Medicare pays a lot of the cost when your weight endangers your health and you have tried other measures.  The operations aren't as invasive as I always believed.  I guess I can understand diabetics who consider this route now even though I don't think I will ever do it.

I also read something I already know but it applies to children and adolescents that are placed on antipsychotics.  It puts them at higher risk for diabetes.  I have always known that it applies to adults.  Sometimes we pass on information before the researchers have publish it.  So it does help when ever persons with a serious disease pass on information for others to research.

I am so grateful for dLife.  I have learn so much that I wouldn't have otherwise.  I didn't have access to information before my computer age and this is a wonderful place to learn with and connect with others.  It can't get better than this.

I know that we need to pass on information to help others to prevent them from getting diabetes, if we can afford it we need to help pay for research and we need to always help others to try to learn how to control it.  Are we activists you think?

Sally