My Mate had an appointment with his eye doctor because of his recent operation that replaced a lens in his eye.  They numb his eye and stuck it three times with a needle.  Since his eye had been dilated, he couldn't drive very far because it was very difficult to see and I don't drive.  We stopped at IHop and we were going to be there and have a breakfast while we waited on his eye to improve.

I wanted to pick the most healthiest breakfast they had but my beloved said that we didn't get to go there so very often so I should order anything I desired.  I really just wanted a small breakfast.  I love eggs.  He ordered this huge breakfast for me and told me to enjoy it.  I felt myself to surrender.  I had pancakes as part of the breakfast and ate half and didn't reach for sugarless syrup.  That was my downfall.

My levels were very high last night and are this morning and it will take me a few days I think to try to get things more under control again.  The price of that glorious breakfast was too high.

I know when my sugars are rising and I feel a sick feeling, and I know when they are going to quickly down and I get a sick feeling then too.  My beloved does not believe that and says it is in my mind.  He has been a diabetic for so very long and he can't do these things.  I wish I couldn't.

The other day my reading was so very low and I was so very happy.  I was full of energy and my mind was clear and I thought to myself "I believe this is how a normal person feels".  I was able to achieve so very much that day and I was so happy and it felt like a different life where anything is possible.

I know I will not feel as well today and I will struggle and I WILL battle the exhaustion again.  But it is time to pay the piper for my transgression.  The dance was not worth the price that I will pay for it.

Sally