I am Will's Autumn Reverie

Friday was taken up by another doctor visit. I saw a specialist about the infection that I have been fighting. I hd not seen him since 1979 when he he was fresh out of Medical school and had first started practicing in the area. It was the second day in a row for blood pressure test and pulse. My numbers were better than the day before, My fasting BGL was 101, bp 116/76 and pulse rate of 76. He performed an extensive examination and started the ball rolling for a visit with yet another specialist. It seems the more I get involved with the medical profession the more often I am poked, prodded and passed around. I was pondering the rarefied atmosphere that is part and parcel of a visit to a specialist. They seemed a bit removed from the usual battle in the trenches of health care.

The doctor changed the medication for the infection I had been prescribed. The nurse began explaining how I needed the new medication, and how I could purchase it at walmart for only four dollars. I asked why should I have to purchase the medication when my insurance would cover the cost. I had get them to check with my pharmacy on the necessary procedures so it could be filled for free using my insurance. I got the prescription and had to go to see my primary health care provider so they could stamp the order before dropping it off at the pharmacy to be filled.

By the time I was ready to go I had missed the bus and had a fifty minute wait for it to arrive again. The day was unusually bright and warm. Leaves swirled around me and flocks of birds filled the air like a cloud of obsidian shards. Their feathers shining in the sky, prismatic glimmers catching the light they sang and swept over my head in a noisy wave. Words and rhythms filled my head, reverie caught me up and I reflected on how our lives are defined by our genetic heritage. Of how we know so much of the structure and code of that double helix that holds all the information that makes you who your are, and makes me who I am. I began to sing a song. A simple one that sprang from me. Voice raised in harmony with the wheeling chorus singing without permission on this tranquil autumn day.

Blue Genes in Blue Jeans

I wander down this road alone
Wearing a body that's out on loan
Dancing to a song that's all my own
Deep in my blood, down in my bone
Singing the song of my legacy
of C-A-T-T-A-T-U-G

Worn and weathered I'm a sight
It fits me well it fits me right
Though it keeps me up at night
Don't look to close you'll die of fright
Each cell filled with that litany
of U-T-A-G-A-C-A-T

I wear the genes my parents bore
I mend the patches and add more
Passed to my child who I adore
Please Keep safe I do implore
Learn from that deep mystery
of T-A-T-A-G-U-C

I spent the afternoon preparing for a date with a vampire at the hospital lab. I am going in for my new lipid panel and A1c. I prepare my last supper and snack with a test in between. While waiting I read some posts and posted comments. I was blessed with some time I could spend with a dear sweet friend who has become so important to me while I have been sick and a little blue Her presence energized me and sleep evades me. I sip water and write, practicing my ritual of introspection and exhibition. Soon I will nap. When I wake I will make a sandwich to go into my travel kit along side of my medications and meter. When I done with the tests I want to be prepared for breaking my fast quickly and point my feet in the right direction to start my journey home.

I want to tell you all something. Something simple and clear. You have all become my new family.. It feels good to see you all. each day. To share all the moments of our lives. Wove into a crazy quilt, a thing of joy and beauty of pathos and pain. Victory and tragedy we share freely. We give each other a piece of our lives. That simple honest gift of support and understanding. A candle to give us light if darkness creeps up on us intent on harm We know our friends will be waiting there to guide us safely home.

Till we meet again, live your life with passion, live it with joy, and wonder. Try to be good to yourself, and do something good for others. Always remember you are never alone as long as friends are near.

All the best for you and those you love and love you back.

Will